You know that voice in your head? The one that "doesn't want to"?
There's room for her to exist too
Like the part of you with a brilliant idea they sit across from each other and tug-o-war for the final decision the choice you get to make
Sometimes you'll opt out you'll say "not right now" and guess what? that's OK
other times you won't even hear the "not right now" you'll dive into days of creative overflow but not always
the ebb & flow the give and take are a constant cycle
This year I've been looking more at cycles and less at a linear completion I have some projects that pour out of me in quick short spurts and others I've been working on for seasons diving in, slowing down, backing off diving in, slowing down, backing off not on purpose but in a real way
if you're a woman who menstruates (hi - half of the world does) you may be familiar with this cyclic... torture... blessing
For me, it's helped me better notice my creative cycles each month I get low, don't want to move, can't move for a few days I shut down it's frustrating and also liberating to take the time to allow nothing-ness unproductive-ness to happen
and the irony? while I'm being "unproductive" my body is doing magic each month (no it's not actually magic, but damn it's mesmerizing)
So my question is this... Do you allow all of you to exist? the fast and slow high and low happy and sad the social and recluse
and how does it feel?
the parts create a whole kind of like a puzzle with missing pieces it's not quite complete but the whole thing it's a masterpiece
there's a reason why I ask because "before" I was only happy, excited, perky, social I pushed down my mad my low my not in the mood
I didn't let them exist because they weren't "me" and somewhere deep down I felt incomplete
You're allowed to exist in all states not just your default ones
if this feels true like you're ignoring a part of you I hope you'll join me in Year of Soul My 2019 group that will dive into -> what you want and why -> why and how you do (and don't do) certain things
Think: shifting your mindset experiencing instead of just doing living each day instead of checking them off innovating your to-do list and prioritizing a stop doing list
regular planning, acting and reflecting to reshape your days into the life you dream of.
no more auto pilot no more trance all presence all light a desire driven life